The only way that I can bring that balance back is to follow the words of my Father that says,
"Come to me .... and I will give you rest"
|"Remaining In His Love" Oil Painting|
by Daniell Barton 5/2012
When I moved for a job transfer back in May, I was totally consumed with making it. I was launching a new company and I needed to perform. I had a year to get this company up and running.....so I thought, ninety days later they closed the doors.
I immediately reacted and went into a proactive mode. The very next morning, I went to the Secretary of State and asked if the company I had in Atlanta was available here in Indianapolis and they said yes, so I moved forward with no hesitation.
Within the month, I received a cease and desist letter from an attorney for "trade name violation".
I would just like to put a big ugly pause on my life at this point . . . . but I have no time.
I changed my name of the company and here I am restarting again . . . but this time, I am seeking the Lord much greater than I did the times before. I'm tired, I'm weary. I am going to Him.
We are coming into the holidays and I think it is best for me to take this time to meditate and prepare for 2014. I am going to Him.
As children bring their broken toys
with tears for us to mend,
I brought my broken dreams to God,
because He was my friend.
But then, instead of leaving Him,
in peace, to work alone,
I hung around and tried to help,
with was that were my own.
At last I snatched them back and cried,
"How can You be so slow?"
"My child," He said,
"What could I do?
You would never let go."*
Letting go, relinquishing control and yet finding the balance to run your own business is never easy. Finding that balance is "resting" in Him daily. For me I have to consciously know that I am totally dependent upon Him and seeking His will for me that day.
Jesus says, "As the Father has loved Me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love." John 15:9
Here is to starting over again and remaining in His love.
Prayer: Father, forgive me for trying to control and fix everything on my own. It is my desire to let You have control, to come to You so that I might rest; to the place where I experience wholeness and wholesomeness. Father, help me to seek Your will for balance in each aspect of my life - PRAY, PAY and PLAY - and give me a willing heart to accept Your plan. In Jesus' Name I pray. Amen.
*Excerpt taken from Through the Wilderness of Loneliness by Tim Hansel, pg.111